Stay Fearless

Keep on dreaming even if it breaks your heart

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This past weekend, I received a phone call that would change my life forever. I was told my ex boyfriend/friend, had passed away. Some people don’t understand why I’m so upset. We did not have the best relationship in the world. But just as bad as he was to me, I was to him also. But that doesn’t make us overall bad people. And that does not mean he deserved to die. Chris and I may not have spoken a lot over the years. But I always knew if I needed him he’d be there, And he knew that I’d be there for him too. He was my first love, first real boy friend, he was a lot of firsts for me. And although we didn’t work out and were toxic for each other I learned a lot from our relationship. I learned who I didn’t want to be, I learned who I wanted to be with. Although we took two very different paths in life I will always believe deep down Chris is and was a good person. To loose someone so young is so tragic. I’ve never had to deal with something like this before. I believe he is happy where he is and hes smiling down on all of us with that huge grin. He was taken to soon, and I just hope he knows I don’t hate him, I never could. And I miss him so dearly, and had I known this was going to happen I wouldn’t have spent so many years fighting with someone when in the end it didn’t even matter. So I’ve learned a life lesson from this, Say I love you when you mean it, always tell people how you feel, Never hold a grudge, let go of the past…its not who people are today. And always always always, live your life to the fullest and do what makes you happy. Chris, rest in peace love. You will forever be in my heart. Miss you <3